Heaven and earth may perish…….

Right now, it’s a difficult to write like my usual old quirky self. Right now, I am a man. A man who knows what it feels like when your world and earth crumble down.

Dad was buried yesterday, and I would like to personally convey my most sincere thanks to all who came to support me and my family. We know that we must go on and continue to be strong. Things are more complicated than it seems but by God’s grace, things will be alright.

I am not too sure about my education plans. I am divided between going after my dreams and the dreams of my family. Should I leave my mum and 9-year-old brother and go for my dreams? Or should I stay and help to piece our lives together again?

Mum and I are planning to shift away from our current home because there are too many memories behind. My dad passed away in my bedroom; that same episode will be etched in my mind for a very very long time. I cant imagine walking up the same staircase that I walked on that night where I saw my father lied on the floor with his face, pale.

I think another massive blow is my personal health. I went for a check up today and I am suspected of having hypertension and high blood pressure, at age 19. The doc said I might suffered from a stroke or heart attack at any moment if I exert myself too hard. God, are you still here?

Yes, God is still here because He assured me in His words that He will preserve me till His will is done.

Yes, I am leaning towards more on the spiritual side, but when things like these happen, who won’t? I love the people around me more than I have ever loved before THAT Christmas. I have seen things in an entirely new way.

Dear readers, never ever take the people around you for granted. Indeed, this is such a cliched statement, but do you really really understand that statement in its fullest sense? I do. What about you?

A Light Speed Update

Hi there,

It has been an exciting two weeks for me. It was a full pack schedule of work, play, and fun. So these are the latest updates about what’s going on (I will elaborate on these brief updates in future posts, one by one. Come back for more juicy stories.):

1) Got back from POD camp, Point of Difference, during the Independence Day break (Friday to Monday). Will share the camp notes in future post.

2) Mum is due for ovarian cancer surgery on Tuesday 9th September 2008. It’s borderline cancer, and she is going through “ovarian tectomy” (if there’s such a term), meaning to remove both ovaries. Yes, she has enough kids, my brother and I, and she will be effectively menopause.

3) Finishing application documents to Oxford University. Yes, this is the university that publishes dictionary. I am going in for Engineering Science. But, if you need more info about Oxford or anything, just drop me a comment, and we will go through email for more details.

4) Joshua just told me that I am to attend a church leader development programme. Am I fit to be a youth leader? Only God has the answer.

5) IB is taking its toll on me. I slept for 2 hours for one of the nights, followed by 12 hours of sleep on the next night. My brain is suffering from headache due to the sudden change in sleep pattern. Any sleepologist can enlighten why is this happening to me?

6) Dad has just went through some product training for a water purifier. He says this is the thing that is going to allow him to go financially independent. I am still waiting, but all the best dad, you have my support. It’s Covay from Korea, some super mega high tech water purifier system, better than Diamond water. For sales, drop comment and I ll contact through email. They are looking for sales agents too. RM500 incentive per unit sold.

7) Cell group meeting just discussed about “Why did God allow evil?” Super heated discussion. Maybe we could start a forum here: WHY DOES GOD ALLOW EVIL?

Bible verse of the post:

Isaiah 55:8 My thoughts are nothing like your thought, says the Lord. And my ways are far beyond anythng you could imagine.